Dear October

Time is running short and soon, ill be joining a whole new life and i'm entering a whole new world. The city that never sleeps. new York! i wouldn't of ever imagined it be so fast. Life is so delicate and unfair , but god has build me to accept anything that flows in the way of my life.Im dealing with fee's and fears that scare me the most. I pictured my whole life late night, i wondered where am i going to be a year from now, i have plans for new york but life is beating me down wretchedly and i want to be true to myself and not fill my mind with fantasy. But i have a dream and im going to speak to myself of that, I will be successful and im not going to dwell on what i could lose and what hardship that could conquer my life. God has done a fine job on this man, and i am so thankful that he has taken his time to shape me into the man i am. Losing my job right when i have my bills to pay is not the funnest way to be a stronger person but god knows what he's doing and hopefully i will to. I have a big life ahead of me and im really thankful to have the friends that i have pushing me along the way. So now that i have spear time, and a hope for employment i will return to my foundation of were i gained my faith in god, and were people thought me so much about Christ. Harvest Temple.


I miss you all and cant wait to see you!
Brandon

A New Life

A New Life
Life has been so awesome to me. God has provided the happiness i've been missing my entire life. A home, A real family, people i wake up happy to see. My past has tought me so much. I know not to dewl on the past. Its done alot for me , i may not have liked it but it happened. Im so thankful to have parents to help me seek my dream instead of taking it away.

A New Start
Ive erased my bad habits and started over to complete gods wishes for me. A new Heart that i can continue loving whats good instead of what makes me who I was.

A New Hope
Now I look forward to the troubles in life because i was brought up a fighter and God wont put more than a can handle. Ill hope that i can stay faithful to gods word and that i can be strong in him.

A New Day
I know that no man is perfect and along this walk of renewince. Ive messed up already but, tomorrows a new day, but i can not continue to fall, so i will strive for freedom for lust and evil.

A New Chance
A chance to prove that i am worthy to take on a walk of salvation. I want to replinish my life of GOD. To soak in his blood once more. People at my church dont look at me the same anymore, My appesince has'nt soothed that ether. im an adult now. Ive taken on a big responce, and i must follow.
A New Dream
My focus is to God and to be strong enought to regain power with god. Then go forth my dream to my profession as a entertainer. God has given me many dreams and talents and i can use each one to reach out and avandulize.
A New Love
My love is out there some where. I know god does not agree of my deision of who i love. I dont know if god will except my flaw. But he will forgive me, and ill pray for continued promise into the gates of heaven. Adam and Eve is the standard, but we all differ and are lead and molded into what wrong, and were dryed into stone, And to break the attraction of difference, breaks who i am and the happiness I hold. Ive never known love , but i shall be patient and it will come.
A New World
Ill progress into a whole new world. A Dangerous world, of lies, help, disfunction, lust , drugs, high, sex, harm, even death. But with the power f god and my faith , ill be ammuonned from any type of evil. ill make happiness out of this world and i wont lead into the enemys plan. Ill fulfill what i was born to do.
A New Life
So here i am , ive started over and i will fall, but I will rise and with the help of you, and god. ill be the best man my mother in heaven dreamed of. I'm making her smile and its does bring tears to my eyes that i cant phyically celebrate my success with my mother, i wont hurt. One day will renew our love more. i love you mother Happy birthday mom, and im who i am because of you so i thank you , and ill rememeber you for ever.

Happy Birthday To:
Brice Brinson
June 29th 1990

Brandon Brinson (Me)
June 28th 1989

Anita Brinson (Mom)
June 26th 1975 - 2003
Rest In Peace Love Your Son

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Needing Help With Dull People

Recently i went to abundant life youth, and the pastor "Dustin" He spoke a very touching , and relative to my life message. As you all know im living with a friend, Dave, and Jesse/Spanish, and his brother James , And Mama! Dave is a very bright guy, he keeps me laughing alot, and he a cool kid to hang around! Spanish is a cool person too and has a humor that i favor, But i never know living with them would be the pain of this season, I don't say that spitefully, but let me explain the situation. Dave's Mom Christine is the only supporter in the house. She works 2 full time jobs, and ays for everything, Bills, internet, garbage, electric, 2 car insurances, W.O.W, 3 Cell Phones, and many other thing among the house. Though Jesse and I has offered to pay rent, she care to much for us , since we dont make that much. Dave and James , they pay for nothing. James refuses to get a job, and stays home all day, and sleeps and play on the computer, thats his life and it saddens me cause there could me so much better coming from him. He steals money for me and wont clean the house when ever its his turn and he constantly messes up! And its just really bad! He back talks to his mom, like she nonresistant, its hurts me went she hurts. But he wont do anything with his life and its just saddening me. Dave isnt as bad as james but along the same line. Dave is okay he does have a job, but thats not his issue, he's not as clean as his mom would want him to be, and the whole point with dave is he just doesnt care about anything. His mom is out of town this week and she said go to school everyday! he has been since she left,he just doesnt like to listen at all. He stays home 97% of his time eating and watching tv. Its a killer, and when i ask him and jesse " Hey wanna go do something guys?" NOOO! watching lost! Its just hurts me cause i though living with friends would be a fun thing! Jesse is the same as dave, he does work, but they dont do anything, they mess up, they only clean when i remind them 50 times, and its so stressful, and jesse has a negativity that makes me wanna scream, he's really negative on everything, only with me! He criticizes everything. He's kinda disrespectful, and make big deals about nothing! I have to sleep outside in a tent because they wont let me sleep they talk and goof til about 2 in the morning when we have to go to school. And there room is awful! I dont wanna seem like im just telling you that these people are horrible but im really frustrated and im letting you put your self in my shoes. Now i clean the whole house about everyday, because they wont do it. The Only thing that keeping me pumping is there mom. She is the sweetest woman i know and she does so much and shes funny and really really a good person to know, and they treat her like crap, they dont listen and dont clean , and before i started living here, she would cry every night cause she didnt know what to do. Im so thankful to be put in this situation, for her, because i will take be treated like crap and step over and such just so she doesnt have to. they put her through so much, and since i do those things she ask dave and james to do, she a happy camper, and that harms my heart, it pays for the hurt that i have to take from them, and i love them all i wish better for them all. And i totally understands no one's perfect, But when you can change your life and be a better person for your mother,a dn friends and you dont take that god given opportunity, what can i say! I wasnt the most obedant child but still listened to what my parents told me to do, and i was treated like CRAP! and it make me cry something cause i see this hard working mom, who just wants success out of her kids, just break down cause they wont improve or progess. Im still there friend and nothing going to tear that apart and as a son of god im going to still stay sharp so one day the will grow and have sympathetic hearts and learn to care of others , and watching jesse slip away hurts more. So i will continue to love them and keep them in my prayers, and for your guys i ask you to pray for Chirstine that she will grow to have a stronger heart, and to be able to push throw and and keep sane when her's kids are driving her nuts lol! Lord i know a future is held for all these biys, lord teach them how to be men, god, teach them how to be responible and how to be an adult! god your love is most awesome and im so thankful that i refuse to ever take your love for granted again! You guys keep all of us in your prayers, im really sorry i cant hang around as much as i like, im helping gods children!