Flesh: Brandon this job you have, its sucks! You hate it with a passion and its something you dont have pleasure doing at all. You bargined for something you can't handle. True as soon as you find a new one your quitting.People don't do there job's and its your job to put up what they dont do, but actually its not your job. How do you feel about that in person, you can't love something you dislike! FACT is a Fact!
Spirit: Brandon, god has blessed you with a job, and youve been absent from the working feild for along time now, you should thankful at all times. Once you reconize your worship from the heart , God will place you in a better place, just ride this out!
Flesh: Brandon ok that all good and fine, but how can you try and love something you hate doing, not saying your lazy or anything but , you dont like inconsisentcy.
Brandon: Your right i dont like it and i dont know how to control myself. I think im so filled with fusration, and anger, and hurt that when some one, or something presses my buttons I pop! And ant that job its starting to happen.
Spirit: Brandon just think people in africa , and china and etc, would kill for this oppertunity you call a hell whole, open your eyes and realize that youve got something good.
Flesh: But its not bettering you any. And teens try give you advise about the real world and how, your just being a big cry baby, who cant handle washing dishes, They dont look in your shoes, they dont know what its like to be in the position your in, You have to move out of your house within day, and you have to still ponder if your going to have a place to live, also you still have to finish school, the start on your assio. degree in edu. then going to collage in newyork , where you have to pay $60,000 bucks for the two years, of money you dont got, and your family doesnt wanna help you, they practicly dislike you, and then you have all that crap tipping on your shoulders and , no body takes your situitations seriously, they tell you to dont even worry about it, its not that big of a deal, but when someone else has a relationship problem, they spend hours giving harsh advise and continous blah blah! How does that make you feel?
Brandon: You have a point, ive been keeping my mouth shut alot thought, they notice that im going though hard times, John C is one of the only person who has the thought to ask, brandon what's wrong you ok, True i dont wanna be babied but its doesnt hurt to to cheer me up. And its seems the times i do come there like "will its ok, ive been thought worse youll be ok" Well im not , Ive delt with physical abuse in my home and when i tell someone that ive been, punched in the face multipal times and pushed into a wall and choaked and slammed, hmm nobody seems to care its always " Oh dang im sorry or well ill pray for you" but they make a big deal of a relationship I DONT GET IT. And im really sorry if i affend anyone but i cant continue to bottle up how i feel.
Spirit: Brandon i do understand what your going throught, and how you feel, but you dont rely on people to coat your pain and issues, God has the power here. Tell him! You dont have to tell other people, its does help but its not a must. And maybe those people can't do anything for you, or havent delt with something like what you say. Now know that god will take care of you. Your not alone, and yes there are far more worser things out in the world but , you havent grown to that, it does hurt the things your are going through.
Flesh: Or maybe we all pick favorites, and maybe are not instrested in what other peoples problems are?
Spirit: False, im sure people do have favorites But godly people always care about one another, and ther situations.
Brandon: Im just at a crossroad, and i feel no one listening , even GOD! My life is a big silent scream for help. I need god more than i think, but sometimes my flesh takes over me and i dont even feel like believeing that god has a better life for me. But i have to break away from my flesh! Gosh I love these people so much, Id just exspect more.
Spirit: Exspect GOD, nothing more, nothing less. I feel the desire that you do want to have a pure heart, and you want to worship god because of your blessings, but you have to break from your flesh.
Brandon: What about my friends, I listen to what people say, and i just think they dont understand them, they only get half of the story, and the rest is made up of assumptions and past situations, they dont see the progression in there lifes , and they dispise them from what they think and not what they know!
Flesh: Yeah thats right!
Spirit: Thats something you have to bring to the lord, then if its true or false god will notify those who are unsure and left without a answer!
Brandon: Ok I am putting my foot down, I love god and ive been disiplinning myself to stay faithful and true and its going good. So im trusting god. If i dont get the oppertunity to rent the fasting room, god has something better, and i have to trust that he will better me, and brighten my future!
SPIRIT WINS!
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I am glad the spirit wins. :)
Sweetie, I know it's hard. Life is hard, however, as we trust in God He does prepare our way and as our choices become more wise we begin to have more control over our lives.
I take it you were referring to Rachel's relationship issue, honestly, that was a REALLY big deal, sweetie. She is just 13 and serious issues like the one she brought to us are actually incredibly important and we do owe her godly counsel.
You too have had wonderful godly counsel, I realize you might want to hear something different (dont we all, lol) and have all your problems whisked away (I wish I had that super power), but you are really blessed to have ppl who are real, who love you, who pray for you faithfully, who believe in you and who believe in the working power of an amazing God to triumph in your life!
I think thats pretty wonderful!
Everyone recognizes that you are going through a lot, and no one has EVER downplayed your situation. I encourage you to not assume that this is what's going on, because that is really a wrong assumption.
I really see this as an exciting time for you. Actually, it's AN AMAZING TIME for you.
Brandon, you get to begin your life, to co-create with God a wonderful and exciting JOURNEY! Man, that IS AWESOME!
It will take discipline and planning and wisdom. However, you can do those things! One step at a time is the way to do it, and only, only, only with the LORD.
Trust in the Lord, with all your heart. Never rely on what you think you know. Remember the Lord in everything you do, and He will show you the way.
---Proverbs 3:5-6
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
---Matthew 6:25-34
Like my other comment wasnt long enough :D
Trust God. Trust Him in how He is moving in your life and everyones life around you. His ways are perfect.
Where He has you (in understandings, lessons, giftings and experiences) will be different than where He has me,and where He has other's will be different than both of us. Always remember that the Word says that now "we only see partially". This is why we must trust Him.
You are loved Brandon. I feel God is really wanting you to look past the natural and into His eternal Kingdom. I feel God is drawing you with every experience to come to an even deeper trust in Him. See that EVERYTHING is designed to grow you and propel you forward into Christlikeness.
You are a warrior, a son of God, a true heir to the throne. THAT is true destiny! :)
Hey I know that this has been posted for quite some time but I wanted you to know it blessed me. I feel like you really have a grasp on the difference of the different realms that are within us. That is a powerfully important in this walk we have.
I love you Brandon,
Susan
thats cool i should try that when i feel myself try to justify things within my own life
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Miss you Brandon.
Where have you been? Everybody is asking about you, stop in to say "hi".
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